I'm going to paint you a picture with words. The picture is now almost two decades old and still retains the rose-tinted warmth of the first glance at true romance, shining from someplace deep within the heart that can't quite be described but we all cling to like those last few blissful moments of sleep on a cold winter morning.
In Septemeber of 1994, I met a boy in geometry class. He said hi to me and I, polite but shy, brushed him off. Two months later, I was attacked by three boys in the gym during group class. I fought back because that what my daddy said I was allowed to do. While I was chasing one of the assailants, my eyes met the boy's, sitting with his class, and I saw him debating whether he could get away with jumping into the fray at my defense. Before he could reach a decision the police were there and it was over. Fast forward 3 years; we were in some of the same clubs, ran in some of the same circles, both on prom committy and both dateless for the event we had worked so hard to assemble. My girlfriends had been trying for weeks to not-so-subtly hint at me about him but I'd been in a few bad relationships and was happy single. But, when I was leaning up against the lockers and he leaned beside me, watching the paint dry on the fake wishing well we'd just spent a hour painting, and he asked me to the prom as friends I couldn't see any reason to refuse.
Prom night came and the lack of romantic obligation made it a blast. We were so exhausted from setting the damn thing up we were insane and wired the night whole through, but we danced and joked and laughed and talked and talked and talked. The after prom party was at my house, since the school didn't throw one. He spent the night rubbing my feet; we were both too exhausted to sleep. The next morning we hit the 24 hour Aunt Sarah's for chocolate chip pancakes and I amazed him with my ability to pack some sugar away (and also my ability to sleep sitting up). Back to my house, our friends abandoned us in what had been dubbed "the pool house" (it was supposed to be a play house but ended up being stuck behind the pool). That's when our life began.
The last 14 years haven't been an easy reality for us. We went to separate colleges, waiting until we both graduated to get married. Neither of us have ever really been able to find a career-job and finacially we've always been strapped to the hilt. But, even when I had heart trouble that resulted in a fall that led to 7 years of reconstructive surgery, or when I made a poor judgement call and cannonballed into the shallow end of swimming pool, breaking my leg and taking me out of work for 2 years, or when we moved back to his home town and both lost our jobs in the same week, we've never lost that rosey, fuzzy, warmth that we first found at the prom. We've never fought, never snapped, never blamed each other. We trusted that as long as we had each other (and our 2 insane kitties), somehow we'd always make it through, there was always a light at the end of the tunnel.
This time feels different. Six weeks ago, my husband went to the emergancy room for dehydration. They discovered his kidneys had failed. While they were trying to suss out the reason, his lungs started to fail too, then his heart. He was on a respiratory for a week, in ICU for two weeks, it was week 4 before he stopped coughing up blood. He's still in the hospital. They determined he has a rare form of vasculitis, a blood disorder with no know cause or cure. It's controllable with medication but the damage to his organs has been done. His lungs are recovering, but his heart is still dodgy and his kidneys are still in complete failure. His time in the hospital has left him too weak to stand, so he has months of physical therapy ahead of him. The medical bills have started to roll in and, while we do have insurance it's pretty uselss at this magnitude. My family and friends have banded together to help us and I'm trying to find a better job so we won't lose our first house that we just bought in October if things go way south on us.
So here's the bottom line: if you've ever come across something of mine that you liked, something that you considered commissioning, please consider it now. Every little bit helps us out and is greatly appreciated. All I ask is that you only order if you are genuinely interested in owning one of my works. I'm not begging for charity here, I have my pride (such as it is). Many of the peices displayed are no longer avaiabe, but I'm more than happy to make another.
Thanks for reading, I know it was a bit of a novel but I felt the need to share the whole story (or at least, the summary).